i defined my thesis intent today in class, if i pass with a minimum of 84-85 after the three weeks of this course, i will be admitted into the program. otherwise, well there’s always the profession of a custodian awaiting me. reading excessive school text is very dreary and annoying however with some divine help, i usually pull through, not without a few pauses here and there, to write something, or talk to someone, while the old carriage of academic jargon continues to troll around my cerebrum, habitating the finite and infinite of what i am about to do. formal learning has always been aversive, but ironically i am still doing it. they say that contraries sometimes make up a person for who he or she is, i think, such opposing forces rip apart a man until he or his self is no more. so that leaves a lot of room for innovation. imagine a man, who might go by the name of jack or tom, but he no longer is a jack or tom, just a being habitual to his daily schedule, subjected to the needs of his family or immediate responsibilies. does the earth return to its previous intact dermal after an earthquake, volcano or unseemly excavations? beats me. let’s ask the archeologists.